Frustration

Is what I feel right now. Specially after expecting compassion from someone who is above you. Its all been coming into me now. The negative things I've been hearing about some people from this nation. I used to ignore most of them and choose not to believe. Now I realize that I've been experiencing only the surface of it all. I am yet to face the reality of life here.

Sometimes I wonder, was it really his nature to be insensitive of others needs or did the system changed him to be like this due to all these years oh hearing whines and cries from different people.

Well I have observed this interesting phenomenon to two people until now. I observed that people of position, as they age, becomes less sensitive to your needs and concerns, as if they have not gone through the same situation themselves.

You might say that to avoid disappointment from these people, you must lower your expectations of them, well now I think that is a good point. But we are just humans and we do fall into the same trap because we always have this tendency to think that people promoted to such high positions are better than us in many aspects not only through talents but also through character. But I guess now this idea in my head is all but fantasy and far from being a reality.

So now I learned a very important lesson that "do not judge the book by its cover" the outer appearance does not tell you who the real person is until you talked to them, until you need something from them.

My own Tower of Babel moment

The title does not exactly describes my ordeal because in my case I am the only who does not understand what the rest of the people around me are saying.

Have you ever experienced listening to what is supposed to be a very important talk but not understanding a single word out of it?

Obviously, such situation only happen when you are the only one who does not speak the language, while the speaker and the rest of the audiences speak that language.

I would say that it is very HARD. I often felt like exploding or even leaving like I do not give a damn. However, I cannot do any of that specially the second one surprisingly, because in this world where I function in, presence is very very important.

I hope it does not happen to you guys. I hope you will always have a brighter option in life.

Midterm had just finished

Midterm test in our school had just finished last week. I am very pleased by the results of the test. Since the overall average had increased by 10% compared to last quiz. However, I can't help but worry for those students who continue to perform below average. I observed that most of the foreign students are having a hard time grasping the concepts in Chemistry. This comes as a huge surprise to me since I expected it otherwise. Foreign students are way better in English than Korean students, however it seems that proficiency in English does not guarantee the students success in Sciences and Maths.

I will do whatever I can to help these foreign students to learn and get their grades up in their future tests.

Life as a teacher

I am now exactly on my 5 weeks working as a chemistry teacher. I can remember how nervous I was when I first met my students. I can also feel how nervous my students were when they first met me. Most of them were shy and hesitant to speak loud even while introducing themselves.

Now we have all become more comfortable with each other. The students have built friendship in small groups and I can laugh with them once in a while.

Today I felt particularly upset by one of the students. While I encourage students to express their opinions to me all the time, I still expect them to show full respect to me as their teacher or even as an adult.

There is something about this girl that is not right!